monster-attack

colours of the world.

2010-04-02T23:01:00.006+08:00

'I saw a lot more in this brown class project...I see true colours-red,blue,green,black,purple.'

it's one month into sem 3 already, and we are almost done with the sungai lembing site model.

the class as a whole is still rather inexperienced, though this would be the second time we are doing a project together as a class. it's quite a mess, it is, but not that bad though.

but before any finger-pointing takes place, maybe we should blame no one but ourselves. i did complain alot - i gotta admit that - but hell yea im wrong.

think bout it.

aren't us the ones who keep appointing the same person as so-called class rep? he's just trying to do his job. his methods may be wrong, but he's trying. if we are unhappy bout him, we should go ahead and talk to him in the face. how is he going to learn if he has no idea what his mistakes are? it would be unfair for him.

afterall, we are supposed to make mistakes, cause that's when we learn.

if blames are inevitable, we all should share it then.

call it a day.

2010-02-09T17:12:00.008+08:00

it's a day like this that you wake up in the morning, go to the gym, swim, do what you think you have to do, and then you feel senseless. you have your lunch with your family, then you grab 'the famished road' on your table and you think maybe you should continue reading where you left off. but you realize you don't really grasp what the story is about. you put it back where it was.

then you switch on your macbook and start surfing. you wonder why facebook seems not as interesting as it was before. you check your blog, hoping passers-by to drop a comment or two, and you get disappointed. never mind. out-of-nowhere you think why not get the specs and holga that you've always wanted since you've nothing better to do. and then you realize it's already 5. so you stay.

you had your dinner with your family, again. it is a wonderful dinner, it is. you watch tv for a while and you switch it off. you are back at your room, and you watch season 3 of supernatural.

after a few episodes you feel exhausted from the fear. you checked on your blog again, and get disappointed again. and then you feel like redesigning the layout of your blog, naively thinking that's the main problem of your blog. but your motivation ceases.

and you start wondering. maybe uni is more interesting than holidays. uni is colorful, holidays are dull. you have not many friends here. then your thought reroutes. you think you should put on more weight, 5-6 seems more ideal. and then you promise yourself to sleep earlier, drink more water. so that less acnes will break out the following day.

and slowly, you consume the darkness and it consumes you. you begin to see things, and those things can see you. and that's when you start dreaming, not knowing that your saliva is quietly escaping from your mouth.

a room/a bed.

2010-02-03T23:55:00.003+08:00

Leigh Anne Touhy: Find some time to figure out another bedroom for you.
Michael Oher: This is mine?
Leigh Anne Touhy: Yes sir.
Michael Oher: I never had one before.
Leigh Anne Touhy: What, a room to yourself?
Michael Oher: ...A bed.

these dialogues kept me thinking.

and yea it's from the movie 'the blind side'. her performance in this movie definitely changes my view of her, always thought she's just a blonde chick but hell - i'm wrong. good job, sandra bullock (i like her too in 'the proposal', it's a decent movie to get some laughs).

just wondering, why is it still not showing here in msia? come on, msia - do her a favour.

left out?

2010-01-31T22:06:00.007+08:00

why do i have the feeling that im the last one that is being told bout this.

to be frank, i dont feel good at all. i dont mind it being last minute, i dont mind it being spontaneous (in fact i love spontaneity), i really dont mind. but at least have that little bit of courtesy to inform earlier. is it really that difficult? im pretty sure im not the first one that is pissed bout it.

kudos to your arrangement skills (not that mine is any better but yeah).

haih. but then i shouldnt blame them. on a second thought this post seems immature. anw i have things to do later on so, chao.

btw, happy 21st birthday miao.

woo hoo.

2010-01-30T13:14:00.014+08:00

practicum 1 aka short sem 2 finally concluded, and so our holiday starts - now. the short sem was mainly of fun, hardwork (of course! who do you think we are) and whatnot, and it's pathetic too since it was supposed to be OUR HOLIDAY. it was supposed to be. haih. but then again, it should be expected already since the very moment we chose to bring ourselves into the field of architorture.

enough of self-grumbling, this is part of what's worth 2k plus that we paid for the short semester. we started everyth from scratch ha.

i wont say we are the best or anyth but at least we tried our best didnt we and it's good, real good. well it was a dysfunctional group (im sure my grpmates would agree with me) but hellya it's over. so what's next?

a thought.

2009-11-21T13:37:00.006+08:00

being happy doesnt mean that everyth is perfect. it means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

decided to take a break of mugging - mugging can never be fun. anw just a couple of events that happened that got me thinking, or rather, emoing.

i dont really mind ppl getting angry (and by saying this i dont mean me causing ppl to be angry of me). what i mean is it's okay to be angry now and then - it's an expression of love. you got angry of someone because you care about them, you take them seriously. why would you be angry if that somebody isnt someone that you can relate to, someone you love.

but still, my friend, remember that forgiving is an even more powerful act of caring. so seriously, chill - no one is perfect.

have we already forgotten about the recent ad on funeral?

just another emo day. chao.

upside down/inside out.

2009-11-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

stressed, stressed like banana.

unsuccessful to enter nus twice, failed to secure scholarship to sheffield, so here i am back in motherland just to study archi. yet sometimes, for just a very minute moment, i dont think im happy.

will it be worthwhile? i dont know, i have no idea - but i dont think the struggle would be long. well, you dont have to be the best to be happy.

just being melancholy.

2009-10-29T01:35:00.002+08:00

it's almost 1.30 am now, my autocads are pretty much done and i have no other things to do. so im supposed to be asleep, but apparently im not, cant.

everyth doesnt seem to go the way it should be. talk bout design studio - first this lecturer was rather happy with my design (i mean so am i) and i thought im almost there. then the main lecturer didnt really like it so my interim result kena marked down. how wonderful. and now im still lost and have to redesign when the final is only two weeks away. awesome.

so. what do they really want? i have no idea. and guess i shouldnt be too depressed for that for design is always subjective. alright.

and oh. yea i have a HUGE crush on her. i have even heard bout her flaws. yet it doesnt mean i want anyth more than that. enough stuff to keep me occupied already so not now :D

a huge crush.

2009-09-02T22:56:00.003+08:00

hey ppl. it is almost half of 2nd semester and so far it's been awesome.

am rather laid back this sem though, which i don't think it's a good thing. we have been assigned quite a few unusual (if that's the right word) works and im just too lazy to touch it. few people even CAR ROL - yes there's no spelling error here - have complaint or actually whining bout it already so im not alone. heehee.

well on the other hand im rather proud of myself this sem. but there's still some stuffs i havent sorted out yet. hmmm anyway let's hope that there will be more pics here the next time. everyone prefers pics to words dont they (eg chuinee's blog).

oh - im officially twenty. :(

study week.

2009-06-12T21:13:00.007+08:00

not assignments, not projects, not designs, not now not here.

here's something i came across at friend's blog.

time to do what i really enjoy, again, i guess. lots of stuff, and her too.

that's a wrap.

2009-04-18T21:16:00.005+08:00

im dead bored, that's why im blogging now.

what is wrong with me. im not busy with anything right now and for that im feeling uneasy. guess working nonstop for a few consecutive weeks has made me a workaholic. damn this weird guilty feeling that lingers in you when you are wasting time. gosh, look what archi has done to me.

still still the past few weeks had been real fun (well only if you love archi that much). from the completed-in-72-hours 10 sketches to the amusing garments to exhausting ortho to mind-draining grafted daydreaming spaces i think most of us have had lots of fun (and damn the fucking pain who never fails to co-exist with fun).

sigh. studios now have almost replaced my home - the real one - as my first home. what the hell. :(

oh yeaa - jo, here's pics of my garment as promise.

looks like skin irritation. not?

swimming running badminton futsal guitar reading.

archi has been so time-consuming that i can't really find time for these anymore. i dont wanna spend all my life doing archi, only archi. argh, i guess it's really time to change - stop procrastinating la.

graft draft what the faft.

2009-04-06T20:12:00.006+08:00

just to give ya an idea of what architecture student's life is.

15th april: final model of grafted space
15th april: folio for msian studies
17th april: mid term test for building materials
18th april: sem break starts
26th april: end of sem break
27th april: submission of axonometric projections (which means the sem break is non-existent)

thanks ming for the photo.
my eyes havent closed for almost 33 hrs and still counting.

skin irritation - if you know what i mean.

2009-03-23T22:20:00.004+08:00

gosh. it feels like i havent had enough rest for a long long time.

still still school's fun. i mean IF YOU CAN overlook the exponentially growing number of assignments. thousand tonnes better than a lvl.

mum was asking if im starting to get afraid of archi after spending like 7 days a week working on assignments. well im really surprised im not at all daunted and im having real fun here.

and the ppl here are real cool much to my relief. i mean it definitely feels good after being almost friendless for ard 1 yr. they are just simply awesome mann (kay im a lil influenced by ming alrd).

today's presentation was fine but i know i can do hell lot better la. still it's just a start so what's the worry. as long as i've given all out i wont regret.

i know i know this post is like pieces of everyth, like sth i saw this morn but i just can't--- oh my garment. heehee cant blame me, im totally out of my mind this whole day.

oh ya. more updates (and photos) next. till then, nights and chill.

(it's not a must to understand this post.)

ignorant me.

2009-03-07T21:17:00.009+08:00

one close friend of mine in sg has been under chemotherapy for already quite some time. he was found to have tumor in his bone (if im not wrong) - leg bone to be exact earlier this year and will go under the knife real soon. and i just found bout it only one day ago.

i remember the last time we hanged out together was after the collection of a lvl results march last year (i havent been back to sg since then la) well we do still talk but it does not happen frequently. we were rather busy with our stuffs - his being national service and mine working at somas.

but still the very fact that im probably the last one in class to know bout it really shocks me. i mean it just shows how ignorant i am, i always am. sometimes im really disgusted by myself. being the ct rep of class i should be the most updated one, the one who knows bout almost everyth bout everyone in my class - at least i consider it as one of my obligations. which apparently i fail most of the times. what kind of friend i am.

it was his 20th birthday yesterday. im supposed to wish him - i did - but im rather lost, i dont really know what to say to him. like what another friend of mine told me, maybe he doesnt want others to find out and be worried. maybe. but that's another point. if others know then i should know too. he's my friend, but i really wonder if im his.

bleh. the emptiness in me now has been rather distracting, i cant really think of what to do with my architectural garment assignment. bless him.

get well - really well - soon, dude.

mini mini.

2008-04-12T22:33:00.015+08:00

a rather frivolous sketch of my dream car. :)

2008-04-12T21:17:00.006+08:00

seamour sheep (designer toy)

mei mei - house of liu series (designer toy)

it feels like a hangover right now.